Dreams, Destiny and Clarity

Why is it that some of us are born into this world knowing what we want to do? Knowing our desires, our dreams and our plans for the future be it in God or not...
Why is it that some of us are born with fiery passions that burn and burn until they are fulfilled? Why is it that some of us have gifts that are so OBVIOUS that we are able to hone them and grow them and use them as tools to CHANGE THE WORLD!
Whis is it that some of us are born with natural abilities that are so potent that there is no possible way we could deny them, not matter how hard we tried?
Why is it that some of us are born into bodies that are undeniably strong and lithe and beautiful?

On the other hand why is it that some of us have no real idea what we want from the word go? Or worse so that we think we know what we want, but when we get about three months down the track, that thing seems like just another hazy and fickle unsurity? Why is it that we have to work SO hard on the things we want to be good at, and that there seems to be no real natural abilities in sight...
Where are our passions, why do we feel like the walking dead and the barely living even though we are Alive?

And then there are more of us. Those of us who once knew what we wanted, who had a picture in sight and who were quite passionate and FUN and carefree and absolute all at once... Us who were definate to the point of being sagacious (Having or showing keen discernment, sound judgment, and farsightedness).
Where did all that go?

Life seems so cruel sometimes through the eyes of those living it, and i am not sure how to live it well, even when i am living my best moments...

Jesus please here me
Jesus please HELP me
Jesus i thank you
Love Des